A Much Needed Deep Breath

Before you even start reading stop right here and take a deep breath… ready *Ahhhhhhhh* How’d that feel? A little relief? Good, now you may proceed.

If you’re anything like me you rarely take a moment to unwind, breathe, or relax. I have found it to be a blessing and a curse. I have a go-go-go personality and don’t do well with sitting still. Ask me what I’m doing when I have down time? My response: Downtime? What’s that? When I lived on campus at the University of New Hampshire I remember thinking to myself that I should do what everyone else does on the weekends; lay around, eat pizza, watch Netflix, nap, eat more pizza, anything. Well no, not this girl. I’m always preparing for what’s next… yes, always.

If you’re into fitness or bodybuilding it is probably because you are very goal driven. You want to work for something bigger than you, and striving to accomplish a challenging, test-your-limits kind of task gets your adrenaline pumping. If you have been or are an athlete I am sure you can relate. So now where do you stand? You set a goal, you develop tunnel vision, and you shoot straight towards it… On. A. Mission. The curse however, is putting an immense amount of pressure on yourself that you can’t seem to lift off your shoulders. The pressure can build up and the stress you feel from it can be overwhelming and detrimental to your mental health.


I took a two week hiatus from blogging as I attempted to transition into my “off season” of competing. I fully intended on ditching my My Fitness Pal app and take on the Intuitive Eating Challenge for myself in order to find balance. Truth is: I couldn’t find balance.  It led me to a bit of a breakdown two weeks ago with my Coach because I wasn’t happy without a goal. I was more stressed not having a goal than I am with one!

I had to ask myself WHY I wasn’t competing? Why take an off season when I really didn’t want to? This was when she had me take a deep breath and figure out what I truly wanted. I had to push everything else aside; stress, school, work, friends, for a second and think about me. It was a wonderful thing that deep breath did for me. 

I don’t have all the answers. But what I have learned and still am learning is that it’s not that I have to have it together all the time. It’s that I need to know how to pull it together, pick myself up, and come out on top after feeling low. My decision to prep for Nationals in Miami, my fourth show, a quick 6-week prep was because of that go-go-go personality. It was because of that deep stabilizing breath. I am goal driven. I am determined. It is OKAY to be. I don’t sit around and wait for things to happen, I make them happen for myself. 

I encourage you to take a deep breath. I encourage you to close your eyes and ditch all the worries in your life right now. One of the things that I always like to remember is to make decisions about what I want, based on how I feel and this article talks about just that. I think it gives a great perspective on stress free living. This is exactly what I am focusing on while I continue with my prep. I may have a goal, I may still be driven, but it doesn’t mean I have to be stressed.

I’ll be hopefully keeping up with this journey and sharing with you lovely people how I manage my anxiety and stress during this exciting and eventful time!

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…Until Next Time!


Liloia, N. (2014, October 22). 3 Ways to Live Like a Child.

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